I recently went through a phase where I was extremely depressed and angry. For what reason, I still do not know. I guess it's pressure; I want security, and I just want to be worry free. I was feeling like I’d been responsible for other people and their feelings, more than I have been for my own. It was really weighing down hard on me. I'd cry for no reason, stayed in my bed all day unless I had work, didn’t really try to connect with people or contact friends, and that’s just not like me. I didn't think anyone would fully understand what my life was actually like, or the thoughts that went through my head. I won’t fake a smile, or pretend to be happy when I’m sad, I just won't, and I physically can’t. If something is wrong with me, it will show on my face, you’ll hear it in my tone, and see it in my body language.
But, I've become a completely different person.
Even though I am not completely healed, with the snap of a finger I am better. I feel better, and everyday I do my absolute best to find something good and beautiful in the world, in myself, and in the people around me.
I don’t really think anybody wholly understands another person, because most people don’t even understand themselves. To try to understand another person and their hardships in life, or their battles with themselves, is trying to solve something you have not learned to solve with yourself.
But, today I am happy, I am grateful, I am content, and to say those words is so important to me.
Have a blessed day to everyone who reads this!
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